These days I like being naked.
I mean I’ve never really been one to dress up at home
But after this weight gain i feel like l lost my body mojo
I got thick.. in places that will make men thirst
But I don’t fit in the body image i see paraded all over my dream board
So i stuff myself with comfort food
And more food
Pushing my diet and exercise to a tomorrow i never get to.
These days i get naked a lot
In front of the mirror
I actually watch myself
See the stretchmarks and scars
The sweat beads and skin patches
I look at my eyes
I look for the pain i hide behind them
Know what i noticed?
I can’t see it without my mind
No wonder people call me pretty
They can’t see.
These days I like to get naked
Sitting with myself has slowly become comfortable
In as much I admire other bodies this is what I have and it has an expiration date
So I must love and treat it right
And hope it really loves me back
Especially for the times I will need it,
To fight…