The change ain’t in 2020, it’s in you!
Spent the entire night dreaming about how my poor heart wanted a resolution. The weight of anger pressed on my heart and mind so heavy I actually took it to sleep. What a waste of time, what a waste of energy!
For we, the emotional ones, the art of letting go a skill for the phd students. You know, the ones able to decipher the thin line between logic and emotion. That is harrrd for us. For the thought is simple; i am the emotion I’m feeling now…so if it’s not right, if it’s not okay…if it’s not shaking off…then I’m the one who is not right,…I’m the one who is not okay…I’m the one who can’t be shaken off..
So subconsciously i nurse it around so much till it becomes a baby..a.k.a victim. Helpless needful soul who needs to be taken care of…and anyone who doesn’t care, a abusive predator.
But here are the facts tho;
Is my being hurt my fault. No.
Did the person who hurt me see things in my perspective? No
Will my talking about it help him see my perspective? No
Will a sorry from him replace the sleepless night i have had? No.
Will me looking for my happiness in this situation by choosing to not participate or agree with the way I’m being treated be wrong and cruel? No!!!
So what is the best thing to do.
Choose your values…choose your peace.. choose your happiness. Stop saying someone didn’t make you happy because it’s not their responsibility!,,
Victimhood only satisfies when the culprit is in deep remorse on their knees…professing how valuable you are… that is the cocaine, the high of being a victim.
But plot twist: it seldom happens!!!
That moral gap will never be filled so let it go!!
Lower your expectations for this human. Give him a very low threshold. Take his word with a grain of salt. It’s the hope that will take you to the victim cell.
We know hope is the very essence of life…but for us the emotional melancholic individualistic empaths, we have to manage hope with realistic expectations. Or we will saunter through life like emotional single mothers caring for multiple baby hurts.