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I’m able to stand today..
The doctors’ expectations have been blown away
They said standing for me, would equal a miracle.
Considering the state you beat me into, on that fateful day.
I see my reflection in the mirror today
Scars of love-turned-into-hate
Healing, everytime I go to Jesus in faith
My skin is gonna rejuvenate, become anew..
no more bruised like it was, on that fateful day.
My face is hot with tears today
Not from pain, _ an awakening
the reality I’ve always been prone to feigning
I realize you were a nepenthe, for I was running away..
Really, running from myself..the prison cell in my mind had grown cold and dark..
I needed an escape, and your lust felt warm.
I feel a train of silent tears today
mostly of regret, and then of pain
If only I’d known my worth, I would’ve been able to walk away…before that fateful day.
I bought myself a rose today
Not because you said love planted me, a rose in your world..
For now I know!, despite all your gifts and words, I’m worthy..
especially the ones you’d offer just to say you were sorry.
I can see myself today..
The real me, not the body you loved but beat ‘affectionately’
The one whose worth is equalled to the death of Him
To whom none can compare _ my saviour, my King!
I’m thankful for Him who died on the cross for me..
No need to go on one knee, He proposed on a tree.
Said no to Him but like the ocean waves, He never stopped coming to me the same way, again and again.
I’m thankful for the oxygen He exhaled into me..
giving me an opportunity saying, ‘Live in me’.
Thankful for my past, blurry be as it may..
for it beckons me to be attracted to the truth in Agape!
I’m thankful for my friends, the vigilantes.
reminding me that true love never throws no punches!
Thankful for no more monday to sunday lies..
‘I love you so much baby, but you just made me angry’
I’m thankful my shrieks and screams have laid to rest..
Oh well, RIP!
I look at myself today..
deciding to remember to forget you..
wearing the laughter you could never give me..
breathing this invincible summer they call freedom..
grateful the hospital lights are now oneiric visions,
fading into the daylight of hope in the Son.
He was beaten _ so no longer should I..
He loved deeply _ and so must I..
and as long as I keep walking with Him, these tears He’ll turn into smiles!
It’s sunday the 5th, the one I call today!
A year after you threw poison in my face..
and I’m standing today..
another chance at life, at love with no bruises attached.
And I’d probably be thankful for you today..
If only…
If only, your love had come to STAY!!
~sheyla~
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Do not stay in that abusive relationship.
Jesus loves you more than you can ever comprehend. You are worth so much..Come to Him and see Him heal your wounds and broken heart..He will fill it with love..His perfect love!
~sheyla~